I don’t know about anyone else, but I could probably come up with hundreds of facts about myself if I thought hard enough about it. And really, being with myself all day long, who knows me better then me, right? But sometimes how we view ourselves (with the benefit of knowing our own motivation and thought processes) isn’t how other people see us.
Here is Carol Lynne to talk about an experience she had that stopped her in her tracks.
Last year, Ethan Day and I spent a pleasant few hours with a fellow author we met at a conference. We enjoyed a nice lunch and great conversation. On the way back to the hotel, I was feeling pretty damn good about myself. I’d actually stepped out of my comfort box and met someone new.
The problem came when we parted company after lunch. The author, an incredibly kind and interesting woman, turned to me before getting on the elevator and told me she was surprised by how nice I was. She went on to explain that I always come across as a bitch in my emails.
The elevator doors shut with her inside, and me standing there with my mouth wide open, hurt more than I’ll ever admit. Ethan, God love him, knows me well enough to know the casual remark would continue to haunt me. As usual, Ethan was right. Damn, I hate that about him.
For the rest of the weekend, the statement continued to bother me. Hell, who am I kidding, it still bothers me. Ethan keeps telling me it’s because I always write short, concise emails in reply to questions asked on the GRL loops or through the GRL website. I’ve asked if I should step back from dealing with those questions and pass them over to someone, like Ethan, who can tell someone their cat died and make it sound funny and charming. Ethan keeps telling me I’m doing fine and not to let casual remarks bother me. Easy for him to say, I don’t know anyone who considers him a bastard. Which is probably a good thing, because I’d have to throw down in my bitchiest bad girl way with anyone who talked about my buddy like that.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m in no way upset with the lovely woman who first brought the issue to my attention. It’s more the realization that I can add yet another personal fault to my growing list. LOL
I’ve worked hard to put myself out there. I’m naturally a very private person who has battled low self-esteem my entire life, which is probably why I take things more personally than I should. I will try to do better, but I can’t promise flowery, glowing replies to questions. My time is incredibly limited and the most important thing to me is answering questions as promptly as possible.
Here are some unusual facts about me:
–I spend my days juggling two young children and my writing career. You’re just as likely to either catch me writing a steamy love scene or scrubbing jelly out of the carpet.
–Besides writing, my biggest passion is reading. I have a lot of authors I follow (no not in the stalking sense), but Sean Michaels, B.A. Tortuga, J.M. Snyder and Chris Owen have to be my all-time favorites.
–I drink gallons of coffee every day, but I much prefer instant. I catch all kinds of flack for this from my family and friends. Even though I only drink instant, I am very picky about which brand I buy. It must be Taster’s Choice or nothing.
–I love country music, but can’t stand to have music playing in my house. Therefore, I don’t even own a stereo or radio of any kind. I listen to my tunes as I’m driving around town and that’s enough for me.
–I like to refer to myself as underheight instead of overweight. I’m just sure that if I could add another six or seven inches to my short 5’2 frame, I’d be much thinner. Therefore, it’s not that I overeat, it’s just that I stopped growing.
–I enjoy the Hallmark commercials more than I enjoy the Hallmark movies.
Carol Lynne is offering up a digital copy of Unconventional At Best, a new Anthology with Total-e-bound. To enter, comment below about something you learned about yourself after someone else pointed it out … or did someone else’s perception of you have you saying Huh?
Open until Thursday, August 9th at 11:59 pm (PST). Winner will be randomly selected and notified on Friday.